I really don't know is it a right choice for me to reopen the fb or not? By the time i activated it, i never think that much, just follow my feelings. However, it seems like i need to concern about other things such as my relationship with him after this, my study, my time and whatsoever.
I lack of the security. You know what, it's even hurt when you know much, is it better for me not to know, and keep on pretending like i'm okay? haha.
Reopen fb, it's a good choice? fb lets me know more about the recent news and can check in or share my feelings whenever and wherever am i. However, it also consumes much of my time as I'm a type that don't know how to arrange my time. hehe.
I need console, I need opinions, I need the sharing of joy, I need to know what's going on in 5A group and too, sweet family. Those are the reasons I reopened, maybe. But now, it seems like I gonna deactivated again, in order to protect my relationship.
Even though sometimes I did felt like why he can add other girls, comment with unknown girls, like their photos or play fb until ignore me and I CAN'T. But isn't that I had tried to accept this dy? Why I want to break this "law of nature"? It's actually become a habit for accepting what he did and not him who accept what i did. Not that I'm blaming him now, just that i know that he's a type that if I say want, I sure want, nothing and no one able to block me. So, i keep on wondering, should i reopen my fb?
Please, give me some ideas about it, i'm lost.
My facebook account : www.facebook.com/potatojoo
The 40th blog that i have written and it is in English.Sorry for my broken English and grammatical error. You will ask:"Why am I wrote it in English but not Chinese, as usual?" I will answer actually it's a status for my fb but the status i typed getting longer and longer. So, eventually it turns up becomes one of my blog -3- And,writing in English is actually one of my ways to hide my thoughts and feelings from him. hahaha :')
Goodnight.
I had told you many times that love should not be one keep on be patient but the other keep on getting benefits. Actually nothing to be scare for letting he knows what your feeling so that he know how to be tolerate. But I never think that he will do so. So please try to think about what I had told you although I know you try to ignore that. But what can do ? It's reality girl :) Be cheer. That day when I saw he sent you the photo of 520 I was quite touched that he is still care about you. And that was the first time I saw he is trying to be sweet with you. You know, it's the first time :') I don't really know how are you two getting on. Good or bad, you are the one know the most. I know it's bad to ask you to do so and you're still so in love with him. It's up to you. This only my advices :) Be rational.
回复删除i always remember what you all told me, just that i really in love with him,what to do? :'D
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